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This little one is going to be WAY cuter than a troll.....

Happiness

Ochos Rios, Jamaica

August 7, 2006

I went back today and looked at our wedding pictures. Lonnie and I have been together 10 1/2 years now, married 3 1/2 years. Looking back, I realized how far we've come as husband and wife. When I got married, I didn't think I could love this man any more than I did on our wedding day. I was wrong. I love him even more. We had our 2nd trimester ultrasound yesterday and I'll never forget the look on his face during the ultrasound. He just beamed. I could tell this was one of his proudest moments. He was so proud that we were having a little boy. A little person he can teach how to play basketball or catch a football. A little person who is going to get into trouble and make him realize all the crazy stuff he did when he was a kid. A little person that is going to look up to him in a way that he looks up to his father.

I'll never forget that look on his face yesterday, and I'm so happy that we are starting a family. Yesterday proved that we are ready for the challenges that lie ahead.

"That is happiness; to be dissolved into something completely great." Willa Cather

Dreams

Everyone is aware that pregnancy can do all sorts of things to you. One of those things is cause you to have really weird dreams. I have not had any weird dreams so far, but my husband has. My husband woke up the other morning and told me that he had the most bizarre dream. This is how it went:

Husband: I had the weirdest dream last night.

Me: Yeah, what was it?

Husband: Well, I was away at war for a year and I hadn't seen our child yet. I came home to find my boss and his wife at our house. I was so excited because I finally got to see our baby. My boss comes over and hands me this baby and I take one look.....(he pauses)....and it is the ugliest kid I've ever seen....like treasure troll ugly. And, all I can think is "I have to love this thing anyway?" I just remember I was really disappointed because I had to love this ugly kid that was mine. It was really weird.

Me: Umm...ok. Yeah, that's weird.

So, I'm thinking my husband has an unspoken fear of having an ugly kid. Hopefully, our little offspring will be a little cuter than this:

Oh Baby!

Ok, so last week my camera cord was M.I.A. so I didn't get a chance to upload my latest picture. But, luckily I found it today just in time to take Week 16 pictures. There is a noticeable difference between last week and this week. And I still have a long way to go...

Reasons I think we’re having a boy…

Now, the appropriate response when someone asks you whether or not you think you're having a boy or girl is "I hope its healthy and I don't care either way." Well, I've never been one to follow the rules of appropriateness. I want a boy. Just because I want a boy first doesn't make me a bad person. So, if you think I'm a bad person for saying that, get over it. Don't judge. I've gotten some slack for instantly blurting out that I want a boy when asked this very question. Of course I want a healthy baby...that's a given. No one ever wishes they want an unhealthy baby. I wouldn't ever choose a particular sex over a health, but I still want a boy. I can see the picture of our family....taking our little boy to football practice and going to his games or even playing a friendly game of horse at the basketball goal. Now, don't get me wrong. I'll be thrilled with a girl....there are plenty of cute dresses out there that I would love to put on my little girl along with many other reasons I would love a girl. But, I just have this feeling its a boy. Here are just a few reasons I think we're having a boy:

1. I have found the most adorable girl nursery stuff. Its a little more cutesy that I originally planned on, but I have yet to find something suitable for a boy. Not even close.
2. The wedding ring test told me so.
3. We have the girl's name ironed out. But we cannot agree on a boy's name. I like one name and my husband doesn't. I have also vetoed every single name that he likes. EVERY single one of them. Not one of them is remotely close to what I want to call our son, except the one I have chosen. I'm determined to win this battle :)
4. I had a dream that I had a boy and that my best friend Dana had a girl (she's also preggo). Conveniant, I know.
5. Did I mention I just want a boy?
6. I was a wild child. And I'm a girl. Therefore, I don't want history to repeat itself with me being on the other end of things. Maybe wild is too strong...but still, girls grow up to be crazy women. I know, I'm one of them so I can say that.

PS. Isn't this just adorable? Uh oh, I think I'm already becoming my mother. I just said adorable. Oh wait, she'd say it was darling. So, I'll stick with my original word of adorable to describe this.

And, so because everything boyish seems to elude us right now, I think we're having a boy. Hopefully, the little one will let us get a sneak peak on March 26th. Stay tuned. The good news is, if it is a girl, we're all set with the name and the nursery!

What do you think? Girl or boy?

Why Bother?

So, I realized yesterday that I keep trying to "suck it in". Not on purpose, but just out of habit I guess. I didn't realize I did that so much prior to getting pregnant, but apparently it was more than I realized. But now, the move isn't worth my time. I can suck it in all I want, but no matter what, it doesn't get any flatter. I can't do anything but laugh at myself when I realize I'm doing it. I consider it good for the abs, thinking that maybe one day I might have abs again. We'll see. Ahh, to be a woman.

Good News!

I got the results today from my NT scan that I had last week. This test can assess the possibilities of having a child with down syndrome and other chromosomal abnormalities. My blood work came back today with the best possible results for the test. I had my ultrasound last week and everything looked good - I even saw my little one wave its little hand across the screen like they were saying "hi mom!"

My next appointment is March 26th and I should be able to find out the sex!

A Promise to Myself

So, I ran into this article called "Are you raising a douchebag?" on another blog that I secretly follow.

http://www.details.com/sex-relationships/marriage-and-kids/200711/are-you-raising-a-douchebag.

And, it got me thinking about my future parenting skills. I've been around kids pretty much my whole life since my mom had an in-home daycare while I was growing up. I learned at a very early age what a "brat" was...and I decided then that I would NEVER have a child like that. Of course, everyone says that at some point or another. But, I really believe that kids should be kids and parents should be parents. Parents should be parents, not friends. I want a close relationship with my child, but I've seen too many times where children make the rules. It was always extremely obvious when a child ruled the roost....a kid was completely well-behaved around my mom and as soon as the parents walked in the door they became complete brats. So, I'm making a promise to myself right now...I WILL NOT RAISE A DOUCHEBAG!